I am writing once again from my home in beautiful WI. This week has been insanely gorgeous and only solidifies more and more in my heart that I really don’t like winter at all. Going for walks is one of my favorite things to do. To process, pray and be surrounded by God’s creation does something to me that nothing else can. Love it.
I was thinking the other day how much one thing in your life can consume your thoughts, attitude, and even our complete emotions. It’s so odd how everything in your life can be going incredible, but if there is one thing that is not well it can spoil everything else. It can be like that for me anyway. I think one of our deepest desires in life as human beings is just to be understood. It’s one of the worst feelings in the world to feel like people are thinking things about you with a false understanding of where you are coming from or the motive behind your actions.
My life is just so crazy. I think I am coming to grips with the fact that as long as God has this calling (traveling music ministry) on my life I will never have a home life like I truly desire. Which is sad, but at the same time, more than ever I feel a peace that God’s purpose upon my life is supposed to be unordinary. At least in this season anyway. The hardest thing for me is to deal with reality that because my life is unordinary, not everyone is going to understand all the decisions I make, and most importantly the heart behind them. I don’t like disappointing anyone any more than anyone else does. And in this season I feel tugged by people in so many different directions. It hurts sometimes when people make judgments on our decisions when they have no understanding of the situation or the place God has called us too. It takes a toll on the heart.
Ever year that goes by life gets more and more complicated by itself. Add that to sincere pursuit of Jesus Christ and it doesn’t get any easier
It’s funny how we always think our current challenges are so huge. But then we look back 10 years and we laugh at how small they were in perspective.
I guess I am just learning through this season that you can not please everyone. And you will never be completely understood. And you can’t spend your life jumping through hoops just to make everyone feel ok. If you do you are not listening to the only voice that really matters. We need to stand firm in the calling that God is directing us to and that He is the only one our actions should truly please. And His heart is the only one who will completely understand us. Not avoiding accountability or discounting Godly wisdom from friends and loved ones, but receiving it all and with an honest and humble heart and taking it to the Lord in prayer and His word.
This world is falling apart. And more than ever God is calling His people to seek Him and Him alone. He is asking us to go outside of social norms because He is asking us to do extraordinary things. To not mindlessly follow the theology of men, but to earnestly seek the Spirit and Word of God on all issues. If we truly want to walk in Love we must be willing to disappoint people. Sounds crazy doesn’t it? But at the center of a people pleasing spirit is selfishness. It’s not about doing what is right, it is about doing things so people will be pleased with you. Not doing what is in the best interest of the person or your life. Love is selfless. And sometimes it hurts. But love is always the best choice.
God let us be a generation and a people that is most concerned with Your voice, Your desires, Your laws, Your heart, and Your purposes. Give us ears to hear your voice and minds to understand your word as we seek you in it. And give us the strength to resist the temptation of living our lives to appease this world. We love you and we need you! Draw near to us and call us out from the crowds to truly make a change in this place.